Blessed

Before I even begin sharing about my day, I want to let the readers know that I’m going to try my best to update as often as I can. Not because I want the public to view me in a certain way, but so I can share my life and be as honest as I can, in hopes that people would relate or be encouraged. And even before that, updating and writing about my day reminds me to constantly reflect on my life and sharing is a part of who I am. This is how God made me and I am not ashamed. My dream is that I will be able to be completely one hundred percent honest, and that this blog would honestly reflect my life. I don’t want it to be a “Christian” blog or a “preaching” blog because I’m not a preacher or special spiritual guru. I’m just another average 17 year-old teenager. If blog does seem like a “Christian” blog it’s because I am Christian and it makes me who I am.

Moving on, today was an average day filled with an extraordinary joy. I went through the same old routine-go to school, come home, and go to the gym. In fact, I actually desired to smoke today but my desires are getting a lot better. Before I would smoke to numb the pain and suffering, but now I only smoke for fun. There are only four things to do in Georgia-eat, sleep, play basketball, and play video games (all of which are more fun when you’re high). But fortunately through God’s love, I wasn’t able to smoke. I didn’t realize till I got home but God is always looking out for me. He knows the desires of my heart and how badly I want to quit. Sadly, I may be the first person addicted to marijuana but I’m definitely sick of the hypocrisy. I’m sick of writing blogs, and going to church then finding myself smoking the next day. God knows this but he also knows that I can’t quit alone. Today, he protected me and helped me take one step closer to quitting. I am blessed.

This got me thinking. How many other things has God done for me?

So many times, in our own little world, we complain and cry over the smallest things. I know I’m guilty of being a whiner but let’s zoom out and look outside our little boxes. Are we not all blessed?

I know that it’s easy for me to say that because I do live in a country club, where a dollar is worth a penny. And I know that, other kids my age have to work where as I am spoiled and money is given to me but that’s why I have so much respect for teens who make their own money, even if they do it illegally. But what did we do to be born the in our context? We live in the United States, the land of the free. People all over the world would die to live here but why do we get to be live here? We could have easily been born in North Korea or Africa and suffered so much more. Did we do anything as fetuses to be this lucky? And even deeper, what did we do to receive life? Why should God let us breathe?

Today, I once again realized that I am blessed.

My prayer is that, this perspective to life would continue and not only be a joyful emotion but also be a way of life.

Love All,

GhanDEEP