The Secret Recipe for Change

Hello my dear readers,

Two nights ago, I stayed up till two in the morning, praying and weeping to the lord (Yes, I like to cry) because this walk is extremely hard. But don’t get it twisted. This walk is definitely worth it. It’s similar to working out. It takes time, hard work, and perseverance. Just like lifting weights, you have to push yourself or you won’t see any growth but no doubt, the big muscles are worth it. In a spiritual sense, I was fatigued. An entire day of battling the enemy will do that to you, so I gave my burden to the lord and asked for encouragement. Funny thing is; he gave it to me.

As I was sitting in the cafeteria in the morning before school, one my sisters walked up and randomly handed me a note. It was nicely folded up and well-written. When I opened it up and read it, I instantly felt so much better. It was basically a note of encouragement. It’s funny how I prayed for encouragement the night before.
As the day continued, I begin think what is God?

For so many of us, we think God is an authoritarian or a teacher so we try to impress him. We try to “be good” and “be holy” so that he will love us and accept us. We try to perform for him and in return, receive his blessings but that’s not who God is. I know for a lot of us, it’s hard to change our mindset on God because especially because in Korean culture, we have “perform” for love and sadly, we carry that same mindset into our relationship with the lord. I’ll be the first say, that I was guilty of it. In the beginning times of my walk, I tried so hard to “perform” for him. When in reality, I didn’t have to do anything. He loved when I was praising him and he loved me when I smoking. Where can you find that kind of love?

I begin to break it down further and I realized God is not a teacher. He is not an authoritarian. He is not a friend. He is not a father. He is not a savior. He’s none of these things. First and foremost God is love, meaning he is whatever you need him to be. Notice this; whatever you NEED him to be, not whatever you WANT him to be. Maybe God is distant in your life, or maybe God is being unfair and disciplining you but he’s doing whatever he’s doing because you need it. You may not want but you definitely need it. Who better to trust than the guy who created you? Who better to trust than the guy who loves you?

And since we are all broken and damaged, we NEED a father, we NEED a savior, we NEED a friend, we NEED an authoritarian, and we NEED a teacher so therefore, and God is all of those things. But again, first and foremost God is love. He does what he does because he loves you and he knows it’s best for you.

So lately, I’ve been receiving so many positive comments about my blog and how encouraging it is. But I want to reinforce that’s not about me. It’s not about my personal glory but rather, it’s about me being real and raw, and whether it impacts you positively or negatively doesn’t matter to me, whether you choose to believe in it doesn’t matter to me, but what does matter is that you guys find God in your own life. You guys may read these blog entries and be touched and encouraged but honestly, it means nothing unless you go out and search for God yourself. You read it and are encouraged for a couple hours and then continue living the life that you’ve been living, which I won’t judge but there’s more to life than the superficial worldly ways. If you want real change in your life, it won’t happen by reading my blogs. It will only happen through God.

How many of us are sick of everyday living? How many us are sick of this “fucked up” world? How many of us are sick of the injustice in this world? How many us are sick of this bullshit?

I know I am, but complaining doesn’t change anything. It just makes the world a more unpleasant place to live in. We have shut up and do something about it. We have to change the tide. We have to change the world.

I know how you feel. It’s hard. It’s difficult. But trust me, when you come to lord, you’ll be able to do things you never imagined yourself doing. Trust me, the tide can be turned-All you need is a pinch of faith, a sprinkle of hope, and a whole lot of Jesus.

Don't worry. God doesn't ask you to sacrifice everything at first. Just like in a real relationship with a real person, you build on love and trust and from there, the sacrifices naturally come because of the overflow of LOVE. You don't believe me? Try it out.

All Glory to the Lord-my savior, my king, my father, my everything

Love All,

GhanDEEP