With college around the corner, I’ve been thinking a lot about colleges and the thought of missionary/Christian schools came up but I rejected them because I want to be “successful”- in the worldly sense. To be honest, I’d much rather live in a million dollar home and preach then live off the streets and preach. Also, am I even called to be in ministry? But then during a devotional, God gave me a verse (Matthew 19:16-30), which talks about the rich young man and how he must give up all of his fortune and follow Jesus. I thought about it and in way, it was God telling me to give up my worldly dreams of becoming successful and just follow. I’m still not sure if I’m called to be in ministry if but he calls, I will be prepared to drop everything and go.
I was sharing this revelation to a friend at school and she seemed startled. (Shout out! You know who you are!) She began telling me her views on how I need to live with balance and how I need to consider the things of the world, being money because honestly, money does run this society. Without money, one can’t survive. That got me thinking. In fact for a second, that got me doubting. I began doubting my future with what God has planned for me. But then, I came to my roots in the lord.
No disrespect to my friend, but I realized that in life, you don’t need balance, you don’t need stability, you don’t need security. All you need is God. I’m sure for many of you guys; you have seen this change in me. Whether you choose to believe it or not, I have changed. So therefore, it makes you guys a witness to what God has done in a brother’s life but let’s be honest, how many times before have we seen this? How many times before do we see someone rise and fall right after? The hypocrisy in Christianity makes us doubt. We always hear these amazing testimonies and crazy stories where God is working but do we believe them? Honestly, it’s tough to believe because of the hypocrisy in it but when you become a witness to the light in yourself, you will believe.
For me, I’ve always had this urge to serve God but unfortunately as fast I rose, I fell down that fast so it’s hard for you guys to believe in this change. Not saying that I don’t/won’t fall, truly this time is different because now I am a witness to the light in myself. Before I witnessed God working through other people but when I was the one that he used, the witnessing was different. It was personal, it was raw, and it was real. There were no doubts. I knew that it was God. Often times, we are witnesses to what God has done in other people but if you want to grow in him, witness the light in yourself.
“God is only as big as your head.” Meaning that we as humans try to understand God but he is so amazing and so big that we can’t and our brains limit our belief in what he can do. Don’t ever think that God can’t use you because yes, you are unworthy but God loves you enough to change you and use you. God has the power to change the world in a snap of his fingers but instead, he uses us to change the world. Think about that. He can take the easy way out but he loves us so much that he’d rather use us, his creations. So brothers and sisters, witness the light in yourself and believe.
“He himself was not the light; he came only as the witness to the light.” – John 1:8
Love All,
GhanDEEP
Ps; email me at elee2023@yahoo, I would love to pray for you.
3 comments:
Eric those are powerful words. I'm really glad that you're following God and giving up your time and basically your life for Him. But on this topic, I want to challenge you to ask yourself a few things. I often had the same questions as you did: if we're called to serve God, why do I have to even study? Why do I have to study world history instead of reading the Bible everyday and studying that? Why should I waste my time with these worldly things? Here's something to think about. God tells us "Serve the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul." The bible also tells us to spread His word, to become witnesses, and basically evangelize. So let's say Bob and Richard are two servers of God with the same amount of passion and belief. They want to spread the word and praise God. However, Bob is a poor, unrecognized person who goes around shouting, "believe in the Lord," or something along those lines. On the other hand, Richard is a prosperous and well-known Senator. He defines his life around God and explains that he got to his position through God. Which person will have more influence among those who are blind to God? People are stupid. We think simply. The person with the power will be listened to and paid attention to. That makes sense right? By serving with "all our heart and soul" means giving it our all to serve Him IN THE BEST WAY THAT WE CAN. He gave us specific characteristics and personalities that he wanted us to use to glorify him. If we aren't recognized in the world, then who are we going to affect? Our work for God carries here in this world. I'm not trying to say that you're taking a wrong path or something; if this is your calling then bless the Lord. I just want you to think about it a little more; you've been with God for a couple of weeks and that has been great. Other faithful servers have been with God for years, and, while they know they want to serve God, STILL don't know what they're going to do IN THIS WORLD to compensate for the lack of DIVINITY that we have. By affecting THIS WORLD we impress God; not by sitting there accomplishing nothing and praying. We have to put effort; we have to know that our final destination is God. As long as that stays true, then there is nothing in this world that you have to call "worldly"
There's just one more thing I want to address. Your coming to God is awesome and great. To be straight up, I was doubtful about you. Sometimes you would be "Christian" and sometimes you wouldn't; but not you've changed. The way to write is awesome and it shows passion. But just be CAREFUL; there are ppl who are encouraged by others... but also discouraged. You say you've changed and I'm positive that's true... but you never know what's going to happen. I just want you to be careful because I know you're going to affect a chain of people and bring many to God. I love you man and keep it up; you keep me going to. Praise God.
so blessed to hear what you have to say:)
your blogs are inspiring,
god bless you
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