What I am, not who I am!

Congratulations, you guys were right. Not to assume but let’s be honest. For many of you guys, you guys were waiting and expecting me to fall and it happened. All I can say in my defense is that I’m human. Lately I’ve been feeling so lonely and misunderstood. Nobody can understand the things I am going through so as a need for attention, I fell again but by the grace of God, I was saved again. Obviously there is a lot of hypocrisy and what I did and what I do but look beyond that. It’s not about what I do it’s all about God.

This week I came upon a quote; “What we are never changes but who are never stops changing”. I began processing it word by word. The word, “what” defined from dictionary.com means; “used interrogatively to inquire as to the origin, identity, etc., of something”. Then I moved onto the word “who”. “Who” is used interrogatively to inquire someone’s identity and identity is defined by beliefs, values, morals, and actions. What am I? I am a child of God. Who am I? What I believe in, what I value, what I find to be moral, and finally my actions make me who I am but that will always change. Sometimes I will believe in the wrong things, sometimes I will value the wrong things, sometimes I will find immoral things to be moral, and sometimes I will act sinfully but despite all of that, I have to remember what I am- a child of God.

Yes, it’s true I fell this week because of my own selfish heart and desires but again, I have to remember that no matter my identity, I will always be a child of God. And I think for many of us we overlook those three words- child of God. What does that really mean?

Personally to me, being a child of God means that no matter who I am God will always love me because I am his child. This week I got this picture. I was living in the dark and it was unfulfilling because I couldn’t see anything so there was no progression in life. Then I put a little faith and a little belief in that thing called God and the entire room lit up. I fell in love with it. I loved that I was progressing in life but then I came upon a mirror. I looked at myself and I was so disgusting so I ignored God and turned off the light. I didn’t want to see myself. But being a child of God means that no matter how ugly we are in the mirror, God loves us and wants to use us. So even if we can’t stand it, he can and that’s the beauty in it.

Once you’ve received this kind of love, it’s your job as a child of God to reveal it to your brothers and sisters. That’s my prayer for all that I would not walk alone but walk in a parade as one body, one unity, and one family of Christ.

If you have fallen, remember it’s not about who are you, it’s about what you are. Fall down six times and get up on the seventh.

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Love All,
GhanDEEP