A Purpose

As college approaches our doorsteps, the transition from being a teenager to being a young adult is happening faster than we would like. Although many of us are looking forward to moving out and being independent, the question of “What am I going to do for the rest of my life?” always stumps us. I know we’ve all experienced it- the restless nights, the insomnia, the frustration, the fear, the insecurities. It’s normal and it’s a part of growing up but it’s the part that nobody enjoys. For some of us, we’re so curious about our purpose in life and as for the rest of us, we fear moving on. We fear the change. We fear that we will be unworthy. And ultimately, we fear that we have no purpose in life. But for every question, for every doubt, and for every fear, there is only one answer. It is God.

For myself, I can say that this week has been the craziest and most life-changing week ever. Just like every other senior, I kept thinking about my purpose in life and which college is best for me and I realized something. I realized that I can’t go on living this life without knowing why I’m here. Then I thought back to analogy of machine and its creator. A machine will never know what its purpose is unless it asks its creator. So for once, I forgot about all the things that hindered me from reaching God and I went for it. The embarrassment of looking like a hypocrite, the fear of not making it, and the insecurity of being unworthy, all of these that meant so much to me, now meant nothing. I didn’t care anymore because my thirst for knowing my purpose was so much greater than my fears and my insecurities. And now I can happily say that I know why I’m here and it’s to serve God.

But don’t think that just because you know your purpose, life is going to be easy because it’s not. Yes, it’s true; God is real, he exists, and he is amazing. He has the ability to do anything in this world and feeling his presence is the greatest feeling in world. It’s a spiritual high that’s higher than anything drugs can give you. Trust me, I would know. But just because he is the greatest thing in world, it doesn’t mean that life will be easy. Listening to him and trying to be obedient to him and ultimately living your life for him is tough because he challenges you. He beats you up and throws you to the ground. He commands you to do ridiculous things. But he does it for your good. He does it so you can be prepared for the purpose that he has created you with. He does it because he loves you.

This week, there were times when I felt hypocrisy creep over my shoulder. In fact, a day after my revelation I had an urge to satisfy my worldly desires. In fact, a couple hours after my revelation I indulged in the sin of masturbation. Hypocrisy was right there. He was telling me that I’m not a Christian, that I’m not worthy, and that God doesn’t love me. But through believing in God, I was able to defeat it. I was able to come to my roots in the lord.

This week, there were times when I felt like God was being ridiculous. He was commanding me to do things that I’m not capable of. The thoughts came back. I began to think- I was unworthy. I began to doubt that this position God has anointed me with was unreal. But through believing in him, I was able to defeat it. I was able to come to my roots in the lord.

Just as I began, as college approaches our doorsteps, for once ask your creator what your purpose is. Forget about the hypocrisy, the fears, and the insecurities and be thirsty for your purpose. I promise if you ask, God will answer. Don’t do this for anyone else but yourself. Do this because you want to know why you’re here on this earth. Do this because you want to quench your thirst. Do this because when do, you will encounter the something greater than your worldly dreams and remember always believe. Just like control, alt, and delete restart your computer, believing and having faith are the keys to restarting your life with God.

Love All,
GhanDEEP