Conquer

I sat there, patiently waiting and periodically checking my phone. I had carefully chosen my outfit- something not too intricate but also not too simple, something mediating between the two.

The phone rang. “I’m here”, she spoke with a tender childish voice. My anticipation for filled at last. I sprinted down the stairs, sat in the car, and drove away before my father could ask where I was going. I was going to a happy place. It wasn’t the location that brought me joy instead it was who I was going with that made me crack a smile and warmed my heart.

Time had passed. I found myself sitting on a platform. My pants were wet because of a late afternoon morning dew but I didn’t care. Arms were linked and her head rested on my narrow shoulders. Avoiding eye contact, we looked up in the dark clear sky- the stars sparkled. The moon light casted a shadow, causing our dangling legs to look narrow and lanky. You could say, it was a fairy tale but soon reality would hit.

I thought to myself, “What do I fear?” Spiders? Monsters? Physical pain? Failure?

The answer is none of the above. I fear that this event that means so much to me will mean nothing to you. I fear that you will be reading this and will chuckle, laughing at my sensitivity. I fear that I mean nothing to you.

People will say that this note is nothing more than desperation shot but I beg to differ. This note, this blog, this entry, is my way of overcoming, defeating, and conquering my fear. After all, the only thing to fear is fear itself.

Everyone has fears or problems but unless you muster up enough courage to present them in front of the public view, you haven’t truly conquered them.

Love,

ghanDEEP