Dedication

Dedication. What does that mean? Is it good? Is it bad? Is it just another way to for fill my greed?

It wasn’t until I heard people claiming their dedication that I decided I’d take control and dedicate my life to something worth living for. But today, something sparked my brain; "It’s not Dedication Its Greed." I thought.

During the times of my misery, it wasn’t because I wasn’t dedicated. If anything, it was because I was dedicated. I was dedicated into for filling my greed, for filling my own selfish desires, and most importantly, for filling the temptations of Satan.
Too many times we as humans, as dreamers, as Christians, we talk about joys and delights of the world, but forget the realistic evils that rest in the core of this planet. I struggled day after day, trying to stand victorious to an enemy; He was too great, too strong, and too real. It’s true, Satan knocked me down to the floor, with just a simple flick of his finger; again let me emphasize, he was too great, too strong, and too real. For months, I stole money from own parents, breaking their trust, wasting their hard-earned cash, and for what? So I smoke in the Satan’s breathe. For my entire life, I took advantage of the true meaning of friendship, manipulating when I could so I could satisfy my personal desires. For many times, I ruined second chances, I ruined third chances, I ruined fourth, fifth, and sixth chances, and in the end, I had no more chances; it killed me. So during these times of misery, I was miserable because I was dedicated, dedicated to my greed, dedicated to Satan’s temptations, and dedicated to the wrong things.

Believe me when I say this; the key to becoming unmiserable is to making yourself miserable.

For example, late snacking at a local fast food restaurant is not only cheap but also temporally satisfying. But in the end, you won’t be satisfied with a huge belly hanging over your waist line. Instead you have eat “right” and make yourself miserable because in the end, it’s six pack that’ll bring you everlasting joy.
In all honesty, in those times of misery, I had a blast. To only have explored the minimal steps of the sinful cave, it was adventurous and amazing. Doing my daily habits and putting myself into this “high” was simply amazing but in the end, what would I have been? Nothing more than a fat, lazy, man who sits on his couch all day, dreaming, and wondering “What could I have been?”

So I encourage all; Make yourself miserable, confront your insecurities head on, humble yourself, defeat temptation, be dedicated ,because in the end, it’s all worth it.

Even if God’s not real, even if he is just an absurd idea, this fallacy is still worth living for, because in times of difficulty, there’s nothing that can comfort you better than this “fallacy”; when lacking ambitions, there’s nothing that can provide you with goals better than this “fallacy”; in times of when you seek to stand victorious, there’s nothing that can prompt you upright than this “fallacy”. Dedication.

Love all,

GhanDEEP