Dear God,
I'm sorry for all the sin that I've committed lately.
It's not even about the sin. I'm sorry that my sins have kept us apart.
Honestly, I miss you and I love you, even if my actions don't show it.
I really do miss you and love you.
But lately, I've been placed in this situations where I feel trapped.
I don't want to hurt the other people so I hurt myself instead.
I allow other people to walk over me and I can't deal with it, so I just smoke away my troubles.
I know and I realize that other people's sins (even if they affect me) do not justify me sinning but I'm not ready yet.
Life is just too much.
I don't want to hurt other people and bring them down but in doing so, I'm bringing myself and my family.
I've decided, for now, I'm going to do my own thing.
I promise to still care and love for other people but at the same time, I'm going to be far from you.
It's not because I don't love you anymore. I still do.
It's just hard on me right now.
I feel like if I live in my own world, then I could be the hero and that will keep me going temporarily.
I know that it's wrong but for right now, give me time and safety.
I promise I'll come back. I promise.
Yours Truly,
GhanDEEP
